Feeling Shocks With Acupuncture My Depression Wont Go Away, I Don't Know What To Do Anymore?

My depression wont go away, I don't know what to do anymore? - feeling shocks with acupuncture

I've Delt with depression for over 8 years (I'm 19 BTW), I have many therapists and physiotherapists, all times. I was officially diagnosed with major depression, but I think they also have smaller OCD. I had to leave school for my dreams because I can not do the task because of the limited energy I now go to another school which is not so great, especially only with maintaining control of insurance for my parents, I do not know how long it will last, second to the day, and I'm overwhelmed. I have no work, no energy and can not think clearly. I contemplated suicide every day, and yes, I talked with people about it. It's the end, it seems that all the help that a farmer to another person or not. The insurance musts therapist exhausted, to see, and I see a doctor for a month, btw, who is out of the bag. I clicked on all medications that you can imagine, in the absence of lithium. I had 3 treatments Electro Shock Therapy, which I feel better for about 2 days. Never again due to memory errors that I have suffered, not because it is not terrible. Ive done light therapy, herbs, acupuncture, back adjustments, everything. Frankly, the only thing that keeps me alive is my constant struggle with religion and God. Do not you think it will be long if it gets worse. I feel so alone.